Well the blog has officially started. You know when you get that feeling on Christmas Eve and you can't sleep? That is how I felt all night... except I slept like a log, because Miss Zoey had a very rough evening. I was thinking of what I should start off saying and what I should talk about. I realized that the only way I will succeed with the blog is if I just wing it and just start typing whatever.
So that being said, I will start the post.
I am a very confusing girl (not going to lie). I'll like one thing and then like the complete opposite. For example, my two favorite movies are "Sound of Music" and "How to Train Your Dragon". Why? I have no clue, they are just two extremely awesome movies. I am very creative and I love to express it. Either through words, hair, clothes; it just depends on how I feel that particular day. I hope Miss Zoey gets that feature, because it is something that will make people fall in love with her the moment they see her.
I was diagnosed with depression when I was about 14 years old. Looking back now though, I think I was just a spoiled teenager. I would run away, talk inappropriately to boys, and even burn/cut myself. I didn't know how immature I was being; how great I had it. My family stood by me and still loved me just the same. Oh, how I wish I could just go back to the moment it all start and kick my own ass. I feel so bad for my parents. They didn't know what to do with me.
When I turned 18 years old, I moved out of my parent's to live with my boyfriend (Josh) here in Ohio. If it was up to me and me alone, I would have moved back to Indiana with Josh from the moment I realized I missed the hell out of them. Now that Miss Zoey is born, the feeling of moving back grows stronger. I want her to grow up with my family too, not just Josh's family.
I know I can't go back in time and change a thing. Those are the things I have to live with; things I have to remind myself of so I can remember to be a better person and to be strong.
I didn't think this post was going to be so serious. Oh well, I guess that is just part of my beautiful life.
Make sure you come back tomorrow and read more. :) See ya!
