Beyond Scared!

" Ice Ice ____"

I know I scheduled Wednesdays as a "no post day", but tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me! I'd rather post one today, than not post another one till Friday.

I've been practicing my "art skills" the last couple days... I.. just understand why my hand won't do what my brain wants it to do. Last night I was working on head shapes and they kept coming out crooked. Either the jaws weren't aligned or one side of the face was flatter than the other. I can't seem to get it parallel.

Oh well, "practice practice practice". I know my next theme and I'm super excited for this one and I'll probably do it more. "Draw a Song". Close your eyes, put headphones on and just listen to music. What story do you play in your head?  What colors do you see? Who do you think of when the song is playing?

Okay, so to the the post, haha.

I love Zoey to death and she is my special little girl. She really gets to be a handful, though. If she can get me all worked up... what is it going to be like when Connor gets here? She is so intrigued by Connor now, but he is just kind of a concept to her. She doesn't know what's coming. She might think, "Connor is going to come stay with us and leave the next day". She isn't great dealing with change. She tends to act up, gets an attitude and she gets clingy.

I have been trying to teach her how to help me. Either, doing it herself or having her fetch me something. If you read the post about my concerns about her, you know she doesn't do well with instructions. If not, go check it out.

She is surprisingly gentle with fragile things. So maybe she will be gentle with Connor... but what if she isn't... My brain!! My anxiety!! Why do you make everything so complicated?! Thankfully, I will have the time with Connor in the hospital and then Josh will be home for about a week when we come home... That's making me think of babysitters for Zoey. Ah! It doesn't end.

Josh wants to get a SECOND job! Don't expect the house to be very clean. It won't be. I'll be busy with Connor's clustering feeding or dealing with one of Zoey's "I want" fits... But, I know in the end, I won't want it any other way.

I have 9-12 weeks left to figure everything out. By the way!! I am 28 weeks today. If you want to see my baby bumps, check out the "Pregnancy Updates" page.